The type of person I am means that I like to push for what I want. If I am not happy with a situation I will do something to change it, if I want to achieve something I will throw myself at it until I am able to get there, if I see that something is just out of reach, then I jump for it. I don’t like giving up, I don’t like losing and I don’t like people who don’t believe in you just because you’re acting off a dream. You so often see people lose hope because other people make a comment or tell them they are wrong, they lose faith in themselves and they can’t push themselves into doing the thing they want more than anything in the world.
I recently made a very risky decision to leave my place of work very abruptly because it was not agreeing with me. Now this is not me being petty, I am talking about my job causing serious damage in my already damaged head and pulling into a very dark place, a stage of depression that I thought I had left behind long ago and I knew I could not afford to stay there any longer. Mental health is more important than anything. I took that chance and I leapt into action, knowing full well that I had to do something quickly or I could end up with rather bad financial difficulties. There was of course the major issue of potentially ending up falling into debt and causing more mental states and so to avoid it I went into overdrive in order to fix the problem before it became one. Will power is a strong force once you let yourself use it.
There is a point to this, very brief, story. After I left I applied for a job as a host, with an acting background I knew I had the confidence to present myself to human beings. When I arrived I noticed there was another category on the form which was ‘performance’. I knew this was not what I was walking in for, but I put it as my preference of department anyway and this led to me getting an interview with the arts department and what is basically my dream job instead. If I hadn’t risked so much, and then taken the final step of putting that category on that page, this opportunity would not have been offered to me.
If there is ever even the slightest chance that you can make something happen then you need to take it. If you spend your life wondering if you’re making the right decision or worrying about what may or may not happen then you will never find out, you will never achieve your goals. The people who make it the furthest in life are the ones who take risks. J K Rowling had nothing until she pushed herself and her books, now everyone has heard of Harry Potter, actors always say you get rejected 19 times out of 20 but you have to just keep on going. If you push it, you will make it.
When I was at university I studied Theatre. This is a subject I was passionate about, am still passionate about. There were many other people on my course, in my year, who said they were passionate about the subject. In my particular year not one other person got themselves involved in theatre outside of university. To me this makes little sense, if you love something then why would you not persue it? I got myself involved in everything I could, amateur dramatics, small films, tour guiding, street theatre, even YouTube. I got myself out in the real world and started making connections with real people – all the while building myself a repertoire, gaining experience, and it is that experience that has led to me achieving all I have. I want to make something of my life and so I am doing everything I can to achieve it! I don’t listen to people who tell me I can’t because they are wrong, I’ll prove it to them time and time again because I know I am good enough and I know that I can push myself forever in order to reach the point I want to be. I am the o lay person who can get there, I am the only person who can push for me, and I will not let myself be pulled down by people who only see negatives. Everyone needs to start thinking like this, I really don’t see why we don’t already.
If you want something you have to fight for it! It is not going to be handed to you on a silver plate unless you are born lucky and rich. And if you do nothing to try and kickstart your life, it is never going to happen. This should be taught in schools. Who cares if you can use pi to calculate the circumference of a circle? Learn to believe in yourself, skills that matter in your life! If a circle is relevant to you then that is great, but it never helped me and if I had been taught how to grow as a person and fight from an earlier age maybe I would’t have to fight so hard now. We lose so many kids to caution these days because they are told they are not good enough. When I told my history teacher in year 13 that I wanted to go to university she laughed in my face, actually laughed at me and told me I’d never do it. Now I’ve graduated because I wanted to prove her wrong. I pushed myself to breaking point to get that degree and I’m going to keep pushing with everything I’ve got.
I actually ran into some girls from uni the other day, they told me they were so proud of me and everything I am achieving now we’ve graduated. They asked me how I have done it and I told them i don’t hold back. I asked them how they were doing and they told me that breaking into theatre is hard. They haven’t really got anywhere. They also told me that they were a bit nervous of just throwing themselves into it because they might not get anywhere. Right there is the problem! The attitude of caution is the reason people fail, or they don’t quite make it. If you want something then do it. No hesitation, no worries, just go.
I cannot stress enough how important it is to take risks! Yes it can be scary, and yes you should consider other options just in case it doesn’t turn out the way you want HOWEVER you will not move forward if you do not try.
Don’t be scared.
Take a deep breathe.
Throw yourself, heart first, into a new adventure.
Only you have the power to make yourself do it, so why are you the one that is holding you back?